All moved in

So awhile back, I told ya'll I was moving. Well I did! I moved in my apartment and everything. It is awesome. I have just one more box to unpack. I have lived here for a week today, I think. lol
I love living by myself. I have noone to take care of except myself. It is awesome just getting to do whatever I want when I want too. I am definitely going to miss my mom once she moves, but I guess this is part of growing up.
My other favorite thing about living alone is that I know that what I have will always be there. I don't have to worry about anything. Everything is mine!!!

That's all for now, folks. (:
-Tasha

Scurdy Cat..

My dad hasn't ever really been there except for my birthday and Christmas when it is time to give me money. I love my dad, I just wish I had gotten to have a relationship with him. He chose an addiction over his kids. I am really envious of girls with fathers that spend time with them...but the only thing I can hope for is that my husband will be there for our kids like I wished my dad had been.
That brings me to my next point.

My whole life, I have just dated people because I was just looking for a father. I just want someone to love me. That's all. Just an unconditional love. I want someone to protect me. I would like to have someone be there for me.
I am really bad about pushing away the people that I REALLY care about and really care about me, and inviting the ones in that couldn't give two fucks about me. And that is my problem. I am so afraid that someone I truly care about will stop caring.

Which is why I am working on making better relationships with people. I have to find someone that I know isn't gonna hurt me. I know that I am gonna have to accept that I will never have one of those "father-daughter" relationships. It's a fantasy. But I can do my best to make sure that I establish good, intimate relationships with people I love. Which is exactly what I am working on.

ENCOURAGEMENT

This is honestly the best video I have ever watched. It is amazing. Sooo YOU should go watch it.
Yes, you. You should watch it.
It'll make you feeeeeel so much better.
So please go watch it. (:


All credit goes to Kid President.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-gQLqv9f4o&feature=youtu.be

What was I thinking?

Alright, we are gettin in the meaty subjects tonight. I know it has been awhile, but it has been a hectic few weeks.


So lets do this thang. (:

Awhile back I knew I really liked this guy...Let's call him....Zac. I felt like it was one of those relationships where we jumped into it before we really knew each other that well so everything was a little awkward.
Well in the meantime, I had a best friend...lets call him...Luke. We had been really good friends because we worked at McDonalds and spent a lot of time together. I was so much comfortable with him than I was with Zac. So I decided that I liked Luke more than I liked Zac. Which was dumb. You see, Zac treated me wayyy better that Luke did. Like a girl should be treated. Which leads me to my next point.

I AM FUCKING DUMB.


Okay, that was a little harsh. But true.
Nowww, Zac and I have started talking more. Honestly, I think it was good that we broke up. Just because now we know each other more. and things are going good. He's cool. He's sweet. He's funny. and he's nice.
For now, we will see how things go. But I am liking the direction things are headed in.
Also, I would like to say sorry for how freaking dumb I was/ and still am.(: